September 22nd, 2013 23:06
I guess you could say I've chosen to write this at an unusual time; it's getting a little later but I feel I'm more capable of producing better stuff as the night goes on (as long as I'm not tired) purely because, as I lie here, there's nothing to distract me and my mind is constantly racing.
I joined, I believe, on the 3rd week of the course? My main reason for doing so is that I lack confidence in my own decisions- even before my first year of Alevels, I felt I would have enjoyed a college course better but, I didn't feel I was capable. However, after just one day of year 13, I knew I was ready, I couldn't handle one day so I didn't see how I could handle another year?! The environment, the people, even the lessons; it's wasn't helping me to progress at all. So that's why I'm here now- maybe a bit late but, I'm still here and I'm enthusiastic and already enjoying the tasks we've been set and working to deadlines and trying new things and it's all so different but I think that's what I needed. I needed a change, I needed to see if I could cope and I now need to see if I can learn something new; discover a hidden talent and get the opportunity to work with new tools; I get excited at the thought of what I could do and just what this course has to come and to offer us all!
So I know this doesn't show or promote any of the art I've done so far but I understand that this is also a place to reflect and to think about what you've done and what you're doing. Also, it's a place for me to understand myself and understand what I'm thinking- to get my ideas, thoughts and worries down on paper!
I think I'll enjoy this quite a bit.
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